Life.

Life doesn't give you the people you want. It gives you the people you need. to hurt you, to love you, to teach you, to break you, to turn you into the person you're supposed to be.

i'm going mad

1. Tell me the truth, why did you fall in love?
i don't know if it was love but it sure felt like it. it just happened I guess 

2. Are you afraid of losing anyone?
yes

3. Is anything bothering you?
school, particularly English at the moment

4. Are you against drugs/smoking?
yeah but for no reason I want to get high one day

5.What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
how tomorrow would turn out 

6.Is anyone else in the room with you?
no I'm a lone lone man.

7.Who was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone?
Joanne Ha. I saved her damn ass.

8.How do you feel right now?
sleep deprived and bleak

9.Does anyone call you baby?
for funzies

10. Would you ever get a tattoo?
nah, ill probably regret it. just a henna tattoo will do :)

11.What are you most anxious/ excited for?
hsc to be over

12. What is your favorite drink?
agrum and creme brûlée 

13. What were you doing at 7:00 am?
making breakfast

14.How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
5.5-6 hrs?

15.Do you know anyone who has been arrested?
can't remember, dont think so.. wait yeah

16.If you could go back in time, how far back would nyou go?
i would but I cbb. everything seems alright as it is.

17. Think back to the last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?
I think once 

18. Whats something you do when you’re mad?
i cry, vent, go silent. 

19.How do you feel about your hair right now?
letting it grow for formal.been considering bangs again lately though hmm

20.Have you ever had someone sing to you?
yes twas lovely :)

21.Have you done something bad today?
I'm still awake at 1:30 am, corrupting my sleeping patterns and health.oh yeah.

22. Are you jealous of someone right now?
nope

23. Last beverage?
dilmah greeeeen tea

24. Last December, what was your love life like?
schmingle and happy

25. Would you ever become a vegetarian?
sure why not

26. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
yep :)

27. Do you have nice eyes?
not as nice as yours.. 

28. When was the last time you smiled?
dad also had funny little stickers on his face

29. What woke you up this morning?
alarm

30. Are you a jealous person?
I can be

31. What’s the last thing you purchased?
pie from unsw cafeteria ehehe

32. Are you hot or cold right now?
warmm two blankets socks and fleecy night robe

33. What time did you wake up this morning?
7.00

34. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
hell no

35. Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a Z?
nope 

36. Would you go in public looking like you do right now?
yeeeah pj party in a public toilet

37. Are you a morning person or a night?
sometimes this or that

38. Would you shave your head if a family member asked you to because they had cancer?
yes

39. Who caused you to have butterflies in your stomach most recently?
i don't even think there were butterflies.

40. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
rightio

41. Are you tan?
slightly

42. Is there anything you want to forget?
nah not really

43. How many kids do you want to have?
2 or 3 :)  

44. What’s one thing you wish you could change about yourself?
brains

45.When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?
off for sure

46. You want to see somebody right now, right?
i want be around people, this house is too quiet.

47. Are you worried about your boyfriend/girlfriend getting back with their ex?
n/a

48. Have you ever liked someone older than you?
yep

49.Last time you cried?
few weeks ago

Anne Pham, RIP.

I've never met her, nor have I heard of her til today.
I don't know why but looking at everyone's comments on her facebook page
Brings about this warmth that just consumes me..
and then I feel sad.
In this world, everyone deserves to love and to be loved
We'll live life and at times we think "I wish I could go back"
But no, we can't.
And as much as we want to live it to the full, highest potential, to the best of our ability
Yet there's always something pulling us back
Everyone deserves a good life
No regrets
All the cliche stuff.
"Don't put your life to waste. Spend every moment awake."

Aw..

Interviewer: Why can’t you be alone without Yoko?

John Lennon: But I can be alone without Yoko, but I just have no wish to be. There’s no reason on earth why I should be alone without Yoko. There’s nothing more important than our relationship, nothing. And we dig being together all the time. Both of us could… survive apart but what for? I’m not going to sacrifice love, real love for any whore or any friend or any business, because in the end you’re alone at night and neither of us want to be. And you can’t fill a bed with groupies. It doesn’t work. I don’t want to be a swinger. I’ve been through it all and nothing works better than to have someone you love hold you.

i just had to

Here is a heart...

Fill it with lots of warmth, happiness and most importantly, love.
I know I may have been cynical to the lead up of the most "romantic" day of the year,
"Oh whatever, Valentines day means nothing"
"I hate Valentines"
"I have no Valentine, psh, I don't need one"
But you know what?
I believe every day of the year should be spent loving, cherishing those around you,
family, friends, pets, lovers.
But today, February the 14th..
take the chance to truly express how you feel
not just with a card, a rose, a box of chocolates
but straight from the heart
Happy Valentines Day,
and a Happy Chinese New Year!

(L)

true, very true.

"You never know why someone's using something- whether they just think it's cool or whether they are genuinely moved by something. And even then, just because you are both moved by the same thing doesn't mean you're going to have a good relationship."
- Zooey Deschanel